I’m amazed by my friends, but they seem ordinary. My girlfriend, who thinks she’s conscientious and dedicated, is unreliable. She said she’d be home at 6:00 PM, so I left work at 5:30 PM. I’ll be there when she arrives at 7:15 PM. I forgot something at home and asked her to drop it off on her way to work (a 5-minute detour), but she acts resentful. I drive 20 minutes home to pick it up and 20 minutes back.
This happens with most things. I get a flat tire on my bike and ask her to pick me up, but she complains. It’s frustrating because I think we support each other, but I don’t get any support. This is the same with my son. It breaks my heart.
I’ve been getting a little work balance. I’ve been below 50 hours per week in the past two weeks. I still dislike going to the office and struggle to manage my anger over the work and lack of support. Part of that is helping my girlfriend’s son-in-law build a wall and patio. It’s excruciating work, and my back hurts badly. One more weekend will finish the job.
I’m more frustrated lately because I want more time for photography and other activities I enjoy. Right now, I hate everything.
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